I am in a state of full life tilt atm, I guess its just one of those bad times in life . But, mine has been like the last few months since my breakup but it was seeming like it was getting better til today where I turned on an old mobile looking for a password and read something she sent to me over a year ago and it just killed me inside “I can never find anyone better or similar to you, you’ll always be the best(:”. This has just made me sad, cause it reminded me how much I love her, I know she will never read this so I can say that. No matter how much I want her back I know that I will never get her back no matter how much I try, even if I give up the world she wouldn’t take me back cause she is happier now with another guy.
I have tried to move on but I cant, the was the best person for me as I was to her but I lost her and will never get her back cause once its gone it will never come back. FML, I just want to have her back more than anything else in life but I know that it will never happen no matter how much I am willing to give up for her. I guess moving on is hard, but not for her as she got a new boyfriend within a month of breaking up, and for the month before she just didn’t talk with me, so I guess she is really over me and committing to another guy but I will always be a jerk and an asshole in her mind no matter how much I try to change.
Today makes it even worse, cause I got fucking screwed over by my physics teacher for the second time this year. So I am on like full life tilt, now I will probably be sir tilts a lot in the methods sac this afternoon, WOW I just screwed over myself for VCE.
Monday, May 30, 2011
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